So everyone is probably making new years resolutions at this time, or planning to do them tomorrow. Christians are preparing for watch-night service and to hear the new inventive slogan their pastor has coined for the New Year i.e. “2010…a year of supernatural favour” or “2010…a year of perfection” (based on the fact that 10 is a number or perfection spiritually http://www.biblestudy.org/bibleref/meaning-of-numbers-in-bible/10.html). This year I decided to do my own:
2010…Determined to Live…
What does this mean to me? In my last blog I spoke about becoming God’s bride. This week, though difficult, I began that process and began to be real with God. I had to let down my walls with Him, give Him my pain, and submit even the parts of me that I’m not comfortable with to Him. The breaking began with coming to grips with some difficult situations that had happened to me as a child that I never dealt with and had never spoken about…and that was the vulnerable, fragile, weak, ugly side of me, but that’s what God wanted…
After this I feel 1 millions pounds lighter and the joy that has filled my heart in indescribable, but it brought a new attitude to mind. God has brought me TOO far, and given me TOO much strength for me not to serve Him as He intended, so in 2010 I’m determined to live…determined to be Fatmohn…determined to give Him everything that He gave to me with everything He created me to be…
I owe it to Him. I owe it to my future spouse. I owe it to my parents. I owe it to my family, and my kids, and my grandkids, and the homeless person in the road, and the stranger who comes to my till to buy something…
God’s going to ask me what I did with the strength He gave me to make it through life, and I better have an amazing answer lol…
This morning for my bible study I read Job 28…the chapter is deep but verses 24-26 really stuck out to me today…
24 For He looks to the ends of the earth,
And sees under the whole heavens,
25 To establish a weight for the wind,
And apportion the waters by measure.
26 When He made a law for the rain,
And a path for the thunderbolt,
Look what He’s done for nature…something that was not created in His image, something created FOR ME….surely He would have done MORE for me…He looks to the end of my life and sees the whole of me to establish my weight and measure and portion. He made a law for me (a plan and decree for my life), and a path for me to walk in…how can I not live for Him?
2010….determined to Live…
Fatmohn, I relate to many of what you’ve said and it’s really really ministered. God is just toooo amazing and no words can do Him justice. I too have chosen to be “determined to live” [by His grace and strength] for Him!!! =)
“Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy, To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.” Jude 24-25
God bless and keep you! =)